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Seremban. Okt 2020

empty chair

We gone this far

Why asking me again 

about yesterday dreams, about the rainy nights, i stare you thru bleak window outside our door.

I saw you  still, cosyly slept, after we talked all day long,  about how we can make it to the end.

You didnt see me,

During the cold breeze, my voice faded by  the  cluttered wind.

What bout my song, dont it make you cry, or it is  not sad enough

While you still smile see me drown and gasping asking for air to breath.

I left the house ,

Make it empty for you,  so you enjoy the morning breeze rays and stare my empty chair.

Dayung dan sampan kehidupan

Byk kali berfikir tentang nilai dan prinsip yg harus digunakan sebagai dayung menongkah arus kehidupan. Dayung sebagai prinsip penting yakni 'will power' , motivasi memastikan sampan smpai ke destinasi yg hendak dituju .namun kerap dayung tak berdaya melawan arus kerana arus terlalu hebat dan deras. Sebagai sampan yang kecil, sekali dipukul ombak, pasti dihanyut terdampar mahupun tenggelam lemas.

Terdapat dua kaedah untuk teruskan kayuhan setiap kali hanyut terdampar. Pertama sampan harus dibina lagi, dan kali ini  dengan kayu yg lebih utuh dan tekad yg lebih besar untuk berdaya melawan ombak yang menggulung. Kedua dayung kayuhan perlu ditukar ganti dgn satu mekanikal yg dipacu oleh kuasa automatif agar deras menuju destinasi.

Sampai bile harus tewas setiap kali di landa ombak, jika hanya mendayung sampan yg sama. Benar, mungkin pendayung bukan seorg yg lantas berputus asa, namun tenaga akan renta, semangat akan pudar jika tidak cube 'membesarkan' diri , melengkapkan tubuh dgn senjata lebih kontemporari untk hadapi dugaan alaf baru yg lebih menggigit.

Bile kita cube mengangkat sauh lagi, berpeganglah pada tali yang lebih kuat, iaitu ilmu pedoman sebagai pelaut, memahami arah angin, suara suara ombak dan arah naluri terbang burung harapah. Lebih lgi mengenal  Maha Pengasih yg melambai lambai jauh dari destinasi tujuan.

tujaun dan destinasi matlamat

Kekuatan kita sebenarnya yang diambil dikira. Bagi melawan kelemahan diri  , di mana akal dan hati sedar apa yg harus dipertahan dan diperjuangkan hingga akhir. Tidak sesekali dikatakan perjalanan ini akan mudah dan lancar. Ia amat memerlukan kapasiti kendiri yg jati dan tegap untuk bangun pada siap kali terjatuh. Aku tahu, dan selali merayu pada tuhan agar diranap sama sekali tembok pejal yang tak pernah terhakis menghalang diri. Yang setiap masa menyuntik rasa ragu untuk menarik sauh diri untuk meneruskan pelayaran dengan penuh sedaya upaya.

Tidak kira klau kita terpaksa merangkak sekali pun , yang penting kita perlu beranjak kehadapan untuk mendekat diri ke destinasi matlamat. 

Kdg aku terfikir, adakah matlamat itu sebuah destinasi dan harus jadi tujuan utama. Atau yang lebih penting adalah kekal menelurusi landas yg telah ditetapakn sejauh mungkin yang mampu. Kerana pada hemat diri, apa yang akan dinilai adalah jerih perih diri dalam mengorak takdir dan bukannya untuk mencipta takdir itu sendiri. Kerana takdir itu sentiasa milik Nya.

Palestinec- israel conflict

Looking back israel and palestine conflict thru the lense of its people sufferings yields different perspectie and new hopes.

Jews been so long persecuted, people without their own state, longing for land the could settle and live happily like other nations. Thru the endless effort after the dismay persecution during holocust, they see their hope shinning bright when the finally regain the father land of palestine.

On the other hand, the palestine arab, after wages multiple wars, and they grievly losing the own land after thwarted by their own colonial master britian.

Jews were supported internationlly, heavily funded by affiliated agencies. While palestine, being raged by the own neigbouring muslim brotherhood islamic transjordan. King Abdullah of jordan seek cooperation with jews over segregation of land that could divided between them. The palestine who lose their home, march towards abdullah palace fiercely yelling for the king to give back their land. But they both are at losing sides, while the jews with newly declared as independent state has grow firm ss nations with strong military might.

 The feeling was devestating for the arab palestine, the house that they built, which they had flee from, now occupied by other jewish families. The belongings , are still intact in the house, now owned by the people the never known before. Just like that. Bfore planning to move the jews to new land, their leader realised that they hv to work together with arab, mutually coexisted , give and take with good spirit. But that would impossible to occur. The wrath of arabs ignited and incured, and they would never agree on the term of letting their land to foreign añd their long enemy.

 The situation was turn expected. Both palestine jews waging endless war with each other. Series of killing fm both party take place everyday, both innocent civilian suffering the atrocity. It seems no hope to get back situation in order.War, blood become their daily events and this had past from generation to another.

The enmity grows down rooted. The palestine at early stage never able to stop the influx of jews because they themself under british colonial. Before that , palestine was under ottoman khalifate, but they defeated during world war 1 and british took over the holy land. As strong member of united nation, they made legal state for jews in balfour agreement. British no long can handle the overcrowded of jews in europe of that time and channeling the jews to land of palestine was only hope. And the british knew, for jews it was golden oppurtunity to be back to their promised land.

 As tension escalate between both israelis and palestine , war bcome imminient. Palestine nationlism spirits was blown under , egypt gamal abdul nasser who envision to liberate the whole arabian under one united. While jordan play 50-50 games bcoz being warned by the isreal not to initiate any moves or they will be ill fated. Egypt was backed by the their brotherhood country iraq , and syria, and the fate of palestine that moment lies in the hand of nasser. After jews went further threathen syria, nasser went when infuriated, as start blokade to tiran cannel which become the isreal line of supply..As few months both agitation was still undercontrol and intelligents found that nasser not intend to inflict full scale war against jews. Israel was confident that they were backed by us and other eroupians went for the first strike. Tha battle haa now begin and the prediction was true, the 6 day war took place and the campaign went on their side, a great distress and humilitian to the palenstine and other arab league.

The faction adopt guerilla or assymetric warfare, hijacking civilian aircraft for political priosiner- refugee exchange. Its also to voicehailer their existent in the world attention. Another way to put their struggle in to spotlight, and suprisingly attracted other europe faction to join force and fight for israel liberalism.this among include the freedom fighter of che guera.

persoalan

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Erti noda itu, mengapa diri tersedia enggan mengelak dosa.

Terus bertanya dan mencari , mengapa dosa kerap diulangi, senja hingga pagi masih terkial mencari kepastian dalam diri.  

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on inequalities and other issues

Issue on inequalities involves mainly on incomes gaps and education oppurtunities. This subsequently compelled govt to provide subsidy to accomodate the basic needs.

Most educated young generations come from well to do family.In research conducted, there were correlations between parental income and academic success. Based on the research, child that parents have higher income tend to be more successful compare to child from lower income family.
The high income parents capable of providing extra educations like enroll their childrens to tuition classes , hire private tutor and afford  sent them to good schools.

For that reasons , places for SBP and MRSM should be given to child from low income families. Instead what currently practice, about 80% of students entitled for SBP and MRSM came from high income families. Placement of MRSM and SBP should be given to low income families although they don't get straight A in UPSR and PT3.

As alarming statistic recorded by Research by Khazanah Research Institute, income gap between T20 and B40 in Malaysia already  reach almost RM 8K.

On another issues, they was a clash between policy maker and academician in nation building. Research by academicians often become trivial or only  for learning purpose or forum. This is true when looking at the gap of academician and policy maker .It less became accepted into policy which mainly endorsed by politician or law maker.  Most of politician came from higher strata demography  and less emphaty on what happen around them. Most of them are elitist and this create low tendency for them to really monitor to the groud of slump citizens. Reliable and effective policy came from the heedness of the voice of struggling people in economy so in will not turned to be half baked policies.

This issue boils up to the importance of giving oppurtunity for new generations to showcase their leadership capabilities. They have to prepare themself from now on to really look deep on low income, from suburb to remote rural populations and see their shortcomings first handedly.

Eventually these low income people must be subsidized  with schemes like t BRIM or small planter incentives etc. For higher income, BRIM of RM1200 might be nothing but for them it's a lot for daily neccesities. For instance, the rubber tappers only earned around RM 400-500 a month if not in drought seasons. Just imagine how worth the subsidies that support  them.