Pak Cik Who Sold Apam Balik, but Refused to Sell during Ramadhan.

The stall was at residential area , invited few other residents from different taman. The sales of Apam Balik was handsome and Pak Cik is known by his specialty . I never miss during way back to taman, grabbed few of his Apam Balik. And it’s a great evening delicacies with some hot tea -o.

Pak Cik received endless customer, regular and irregular . As retired war veteran, with this stall business, Pak Cik lived moderate life yet happily. Sometimes Pak Cik will be joined with his comrades, also war’s veterans , giving him some helping hands run the tiny business.

Ramadhan along the corner, I enthusiastly spoke to Pak Cik about his business. Surely this Ramadhan by God willing Pak Cik will gain more income on selling his Apam. I told that Ramadhan surely invite extra customer and some will order for the large amount . Maybe there will be some bookings, so Pak Cik need more helper and advisedly upgrade the stall to become larger. Pak Cik smiled cordialy and nodded attentively . When Ramadhan just a day ahead, residents are became eager and some had plan to be there earlier to get Pak Cik’s delicious Apam Balik.

Hot Ramadhan evening and residents were out to pasar Ramadhan for breaking fast delicacies. I among early but…I just can’t believe my eyes that Pak Cik stall was not there…

Second Ramahan also the same, then gone weeks, but still the same. Where is Pak Cik ? I fail to find Pak Cik during Ramadhan. Residents also puzzled his sudden disappearance.

But at last I was made to met Pak Cik again. But that was during Syawal month. I stopped him and gave salam. He smiled as usual. I asked about his whereabouts during Ramadhan. With his sharp calmly smile he answered, “Sory son , Pak Cik open the stall after Isya’ and Terawih prayer everyday during Ramdhan at our residential surau. But this time Pak Cik give all for free. But confusedly , why customers not crowded as usual…"

After long thought, I understood what meant by Pak Cik.

Heart and Mind

We maybe a person with sky achievements. Every aim that lay ,everything seems goes onto target. Nothing obstacled the way, just simply and confidently leap every hurdles to achieve the goal.

Life is not solely about achieving. I learned that life is also about contemplating and meditating . Seldom we ask ourselves : We did right thing ? What is the real purpose ? Did we manipulate others ? Is it the best way to be done ? It’s sound simple and trivial but this little tiny things determined the person colors.

Once yourself always yourself . I disagree, I want to keep the good of myself, thrash up undescend , dirty and smelly part of me . But that’s not about all, I keep on asking how to become a better person. What software need to be installed in ourselves ? Is it need to be installed ? Or something already in our inner that need to change, refurbish or overhaul ?

There are two engines that work us as human . HEART AND MIND. This two engines need to function together with regular servicing and maintenance. Often I miss the next service date…..

hati aku lebam main di taman permainanmu

hati ku lebam main di taman permainan mu

tidak penah lebam yang besar begini
sejak aku mula main di taman permainan mu.
masa aku hayun buaian lalu engkau senyum dan gelak
sebenanya aku telah lama menangis dan bengkak.

tidak penah lebam yang besar begini
waktu engku jerit gembira di puncak papan gelongsor
sedang aku jatuh melungsur ke tanah
Lalu engkau gelak tentang betapa badutnya aku.

tidak penah lebam sebesar begini
waktu bermain jongkang jongkit itu
ketika aku di bawah dan engkau di atas
dan engkau terus mahu berada di atas
engkau terus gembira dan suka aku terkinja di bawah.

dan hari itu lebam itu sudah sebesar bulan
masa aku ajak engkau pulang
kau masih mahu terus bermain di taman permainan
sedang aku tahu engkau melihat dari jauh
ku jalan pulang seorang diri
meninggalkan taman permainan itu.