the pensil tumpul learns to write....

Heart and Medicine

2012-01-22T22:48:00.001-08:00

1. Solat
2. Zikr
3. Recite Al- Quran

Try to do this three . Try to do with ur utmost consistent . It's the best heart medicine from GOD. Try first and see the result. Insyallah

Suffice and Fulfill

2011-11-03T01:17:00.000-07:00

Some hikmah excerpt from Syeikh Hamzah Yusuf lecture :

'If you seek in this world what suffice you, the least of this world will suffice you.

And if you seek from this world what will fulfill you and you are not fulfilled by what suffice you,then there is nothing in this world will fulfill you.'

Goal , Methode and Attitude

2011-10-26T17:57:00.000-07:00

Get ourself busy and doing this by setting goal frequently. First is the goal, secondly think about the methoden how it need to be done. Thirdly the atttitude to make it done and achieve the goal.The third element include your effort , focus and steadfast.

Habit and behavior pattern of person are determining factors. This internally built hardware in ourself need to be develop and sharpen continuosly. Ability to achieve the goal lies at value that subordinate by the person.

Succes : Demand and Expectation

2011-10-05T08:15:00.000-07:00

Succes according to Oxford Dictionary is attainment of objective, wealth, fame and social status. They also defined as achievement of a desired end such as prosperity and peace of mind.

Few weeks ago I was tasked to organize a grand function for some annual occassion. It was tedious jobs and ended up so called succesfull. In between we received mix voices from the audience which commented on our bad coordination, food not well done, poor reception ,slow waiters and so on.

Upon ending for that nightt, the VVIP and Chairman which are as our guest of honor congratulated us for well organized event . Thus all the fuss and back talking faded, we were all elated to the flattering words. The long hard toil getting everything run smoothly pay off.

In realising the true success , we need to understand the expectations and demands very well. Where do we refer for to meeting the demand? In this case, surely the chairman or one who being celebrated. I consider the succes of organizing this event largely due to complying the demand and expectation the guest of honor.

Therefore to relate the succes of human being in this life, inevitablely it must be to fulfill the demand and expection of the Most Superior, GOD, who created us. Do ever human realise these GOD expectations ?

Fall and Rise

2011-10-03T17:43:00.000-07:00

Fall and Rise

Life is continous fall and rise. And we stop hoping when no longer have will to rise. Even at the last junction, we may still choose the wrong road but never reluctant to make the u turn .

When you put your entire life and effort to be better person , and you still repeat the same mistakes , never let this grave you forever. Even you have to return back to starting line, with all that you built going to the drain. Just say ' for the God that had gave so much, I will never dissapoint Him, I do anything again and again to be His obedience servant'.

Bring your map and compass along the journey. In case of lost, don't procrastinate to orientate again to the right path. Pray for the save and happy journey so we rejoice once reach the destination. Insyallah.

Strenght and Motivation

2011-09-30T19:47:00.000-07:00

I always find ways and best solution to everyday distress and demoralised.We are entrusted with big task and responsibilty each day. Every morning the fatique and fear to face the the day become my daily breakfirst.

My conclusion is probably we unable to foresee our day vividly. Goal and objectives seems to be obscure. The destination which undecided made the route to choose never solved.

So I need to start new and fresh each day. Woke up early and pray to God that I'm very gratefull for still giving me chance to live. I will promise to Him to do utmost for the day without transgress His forbid and do what He asked. I need to remind myself every each about true purpose of life and always begin the end in mind. Yes, this is my true strenght and motivation. Insyallah.

Going Back to You, God.

2011-09-02T18:22:00.000-07:00

In tranquillity of moment
in the quite of alone
seek only Your forgiveness.

Just like the rolling waves
throughout day and night
only wish for the calmness within
from the Most Merciful.

This mountain of sins
keep on written in my day
mistakes and wrongs
which now i repented.

I'm not the one for Your paradise
but I beg not to stumble to Your infernal
I surrender myself again
prostrate in my most humble
Going back to You ,Almighty.

Trying to be always faithfull
obiedient in every Your demand
and utmost in abide Your forbids.

This is my Love
the Love to You, God.

syawal 2011.

Al- Fatihah

2011-07-31T04:03:00.000-07:00

Saya merujuk berita 'Maut dilanggar bapa undur MPV' Berita Harian 30 Julai 2011. Kisah sayu ini amat menyayat hati dan saya menyedekah Al- Fatihah kepada Nuramni Athirah .Bagi bapa dan keluarga Che Fauzi agar terus bersabar, memohon kekuatan iman dan petunjuk daripada yang Maha Berkuasa. ' Tuhan melembutkan hati kita dengan kurnian cahaya mata, dan Tuhan menyucikan hati dengan mengambil kembali anugerah itu.' Amin.

Bertanya Tentang Tuhan

2011-07-30T17:15:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum Ust.

Saya Shamyl, pasti Ust tak kenal saya. Saya antara pembaca buku penulisan Ust , 'Bertanya Tentang Tuhan'. Saya amat tertarik pada judulnya lantas tanpa berfikir panjang terus membeli. Pengalaman membaca dan 'mengembara' bersama Ust amatlah berkesan sekali dan saya merasakan ia sebuah buku yang cukup baik dan mudah difahami . Ia menjawap banyak soalan dari dalam diri saya, banyak membuka hati dan minda saya dalam menelusuri hidup kini yang kian lupa berbicara tentang Tuhan.

Hidup yang pancaroba kini , amat sukar untuk merasakan diri sebagai seorang hamba. Apatahlah lagi untuk tekun mematuhi ajaran Nya yang benar ini. Mungkin perjanjian roh dengan Tuhan sautu ketika dulu merupakan episod penting yang telah lama dilupakan dan tidak layak dibincangkan bersama ketinggian intelektual masa kini. Seperti yang Ust ceritakan , perjanjian yang dilupakan, walaupun telah dipesan oleh komander, dan bila terjun ke hutan itu , ramai mereka terpesona dengannya hingga ada yang tersangkut duri dan ada yang berpaling tadah.

Mungkin saya lupa selama ini bahawa Tuhan itu dekat,Sebaliknya saya sendiri yang selama ini menjauhkan diri dari Nya oleh sebab kejahilan .Bila mengetahui dan diterang oleh Ust bahawasanya Tuhan itu dekat, ia adalah berita gembira pada saya dan memberi beri semangat pada orang seperti saya yang masih terkial-kial untuk mengenal dan mencari Tuhan.

Saya bersyukur kerana diberi peluang membaca buku 'Bertanya tentang Tuhan'. Saya berterima kasih kerana Ust kerana bersama saya sepanjang perjalanan itu, Kini saya merasakan panggilan saya semakin disahut dan dijawap oleh Tuhan dan menyedarkan saya perlu banyak bertanya dan mencari lagi.

Mungkin kita boleh berjumpa dan berbicara panjang lagi . Banyak soalan yang terus bermain di fikiran saya
yang masih mahu Bertanya Tentang Tuhan.

Wasalam.
25 Jul 11, Seremban.

Obesity and Habit

2011-07-30T17:11:00.000-07:00

I like to share some thots on this heating issue. I been up and down in fighting to reduce my weight . As personnel that work with Defence Ministry , the weight control is alarmingly eminent. It really a determining factor to excel in my career path. This was the carrot and stick or the motivation which I subordinate all this while. I need to maintain my Body Mass Index ( BMI ) not to exceed more than 26.9 . But this grievous weight control struggle always ended up myself in dismay. I failed to continuously maintain the index due to my great habit of food lover.

Today food temptations are unresistable, we being served 24 hour daily , fast feeding food, Mamak stalls with the mini cinema which invite customer to join together and having one Malaysia delicacies all day long. This external factor very contagiously attract new kind of eating habit. Unlimited consume of food at uncertain time contribute greatly to obesity.

But why even I manage reduce my weight below 26.9 BMI , for certain purpose especially when to attend courses or on promotion board, but still I unable to maintain that weight for longer time ? This is something associate to habit . I have developed bad pattern of eating which then become my bad habit. Habit is something we do continuously and it is an auto – pilot kind of act. This means if we have the good habit of eating and life style , this issue won’t arise. This is critical challenge, to create and change the habit of eating and lifestyle. That all it takes.

But habit not built over night. It takes gradual time which involve knowledge , desire and skills to evolve. When this awareness and consciousness is inseparable to someone, it would naturally indicate when you need to buckling down to control your weight and lifestyle. The habit must be nurture at very young ages, so the adolescent aware this important habit at any level of age.

Excess food that not burnt will become saturated fats. This means the food that we consume doesn’t equal to the activity that we do. I always remind myself if I want enjoy more of my favorite temptations, subsequently I need to counter them by any activity which with the food consumed. Some food for thought.

Of Purpose, Reason and Endstate.

2011-07-03T09:17:00.000-07:00

Whenever we lost or get puzzled, or ended up in confusing maze, the best thing to do is to go back where we started. In life , we always assumed to 'know' everything, assume we are aware and conscious of every our decisions and actions. If we do , great , you are on the right track.

I'm here not trying to educate anyone, just to rewind or maybe refresh back where we started, looking at the fundalmental or basic things in our life. Every event that occur or things we do always lies the intention , motives and reasons. All this is to contribute to the goal we stated, which is the endstate of what we want to achieve or things we want to see happen. This is commonsense. Probably people will laugh if i'm trying to make a class on this topic. Those are succesfull realised this and they become very effective people.

In our daily life, we set goals , wheter conscious and unconscious. There must be reason behind our doing or act which sometimes we doesnt clear with . In order to be control of ourself,we should have clear understanding about this fundalmental. And to be highly effective person, we need to start with clear understanding of our destination ( endstate), it means to to know where we are going ,better understanding where we are now and so that the steps that we take always in the right direction.

It always crucial to decide destination or intent we want to achieve. This is no nonsense or recreational task. Probably may I suggest a initial question to ask ourself, 'What I want in this life ?' This is a great start ! The greatness of your goal the greater your action will be and greatest person you become.

So decide now.

Doa Kosmopolitan

2011-06-26T10:32:00.000-07:00

Silapnya diriku
mencari pengertian di tengah kosmopolitan.
Nikmat yang dijanji bukan yang dimaksudkan.

Sisa selingkuh masih mendamba
menjamu hidangan nikmat
meski cuba giat bersihkan noda
di sepenjuru halaman
yang daun keringnya
masih terus rontok.

Berlima waktu sehari semalam
berusaha juga membersih
ranting kering
kian lama merimbun laman.

Ditingkat bangunan tinggi lampai
kulihat segala kecil kerdil
sebegitu halus lemah Engkau melihatku.
Aku mahu terus bertekad tapi enggan berjanji.
Fana hidup gigit dan himpit segenap lorong sempit
meski daif kusam laluan ini
sentiasa mengharap jalan lurusMu.
Benar benar harap agar temui jalan utama
setelah sesat berlapis-lapis lorong meragukan.

Neon semalam kerdipnya masih
bukan lilin cahaya yang panasnya suci
yang sentiasa aku harapkan.
Tidak lagi ku tebar tikar sejadah kota
tapi mahu lebih berusaha membina bahtera.
Jika ditakdirkan kota kembali banjir
tidak mahu lagi lemas telan asin laut
aku masih cepat berusha
walau senja sudah lama tiba.

Banyak telah dipelajari
tentang dengung sebuah kota
sudah letih lakoni watak pendusta
kononnya semua bahagia
tetapi malam masih saja
mengeluh sengsara.

Jika kali ini aku terpacul lagi
untuk bangkit langkah sekian kali
dengan tampak segak di muka pintu
bagi kembali melangkah,
beri peluang kujadi hamba yang dulu
yang diberi tunjuk jalan lurusnya
yang diberi tangan tolongnya
seperti orang yang dihulur nikmatnya
bukan orang yang dimurkainya dan
di jalan sesatnya.

Suluhi ku jalan terang
meski neon kota selalunya benderang
membawaku ke jalan banyak simpang.
Dan jika ditakdirkan lagi
aku menemuai jalan berduri
bantuilah hambaMu ini membuat keputusan
waras berfikir memilih kebenaran.

Lieut.(KIA) Adnan Saidi , MID, QGM, SM

2011-05-29T10:42:00.000-07:00

Kent Ridge Park , Keranji War Cemetary , Singapore. Cemetary no. 385 engraved ' Adnan Saidi , Lieutenant.' Actually his body was never found. The Battle of Opium Hill had witnessed everything. One of the local who resided along Bukit Chandu, went to the battleground few days after the bloody battle, ' I saw the the body of malay soldiers along the field scattered and dismembered. At one of the barnyard, they were few bodies pile lying, one of them which the throat severely slithed several times, the uniform soaked with plenty of blood, by judging the badge at his uniform , he was officer that could be Adnan Saidi. Some record also mentioned his body then burn into ashes by the Japaneese.

Earlier, during the battle, after seriouly wounded and shot, Adnan went on fighting with the bare hand and rifle bayonetded attached. Unable to stand and lying prone to ground, he finally surrounded by the Jap, being dragged and hung to a tree, and fiercely boyoneted numerous time until death. All this gruesome and tragic moment witness by Corporal Yaacob in front of his very eyes. Yaacob still alive today.

Adnan already realised,situation getting untenable for his company. But his decision still bold, he yelled to his comrades , ' Let today be the evident of our loyalty to our code, we have to fight to our last breath, think about our family and love ones, think about our country and they really need our protection and sacrifice, remember our code , death before dishonor...'

Today, I doubt the spirit of this gallant warrior and honored soldier still lurked in our innermost strenght and zeal. I still hesitate that today people are willing to give their life to this beloved country . This only can be shown by the intagibles within human , the true understanding the purpose of life and compel obedience to God.

Last words from Lieutenant Adnan, probably will boost some our diluted spirit :

The History had proven that we had conquered the world, we are able to build an empire, able to build large ships, even bigger then Portuguese Flora d Le Mar, that is before we were conquered....Other people realize our capability, that's why they are scared, when we want to take back what is ours. Our Independence can give large impact to the world....Remember that the we were independence and sovereign and we are the one who said "Biar putih tulang jangan putih mata" (better die trying than losing, death before dishonor )

Al-Fatihah to Adnan Saidi (1915-1942)

Purpose Of Life

2011-05-27T13:12:00.000-07:00

This is the most inevitable question that will occur and ask as being a human. No matter what background we are, this lines will cross in any junction and journey of our life. The only matter is wheter we relunctant to find and know the real answer or seroiusly delve to search and seek the real purpose of life.

We may have many views, due to different opinion and thots. But I sternly sure it's all about the endstate that we wanted to achieve. As human we always seek for the happiness and peace of mind. But what define the real and truth of being happy? This momnet our mind need to have the rightly guided answer, not just merely feeling and thinking. Religion have the answer with tree vital dimensions : Purpose, Methode and Endstate (PME)

As we discuss earlier the Endstate is treached the truly happiness and success in life and hereafter. So this only can be achieved if what have the rightfully guided answer on the purpose and methode that we need to conduct in this life.

I alway like to refer 3 main purpose why human are created as mentioned in Holy Al- Quran . First is to devote ourself to Only God. Second we are here to be the vicegerent on earth and thirdly the life itself a realm of trial which determine who amongst human are the best in deeds. All this successness is the real happiness and the key to heaven.

Now i like to elobrate on the methode. The first pupose is to devote to only God which means we have to perform and obey His commandment and avoid His Forbiddens and sinerely accept of what He had destined. Secondly as vicegerent on earth , we need to use our wisdom and initial purpose of devotion to lead and administer the world for good and a better place. And lastly all this encompasess for the third purpose that life is trial where the need of patience and steadfastness in performing our responsiblity and duty as mention above.

This is only road to the most true happiness and succesness in life and hereafter. Life just doesnt end after our death and burial. The day of judgement will determine who amongst us is truly success a gain his prize of eternal happiness..the heavens.

8 Habits of the Heart

2011-05-14T11:33:00.000-07:00

Don't get wrong with the author of this book, no , not Dr Covey. This catchy title were discovered afthe I dig at local bookshop, and i would like to introduce to you , Mr Clifton L. Taulbert. It is 1997 Penguin Book published, he is the author of previous renowned and acclaimed book ,Once Upon a Time When We were Colored.

He is the gentle scientist of relationship, families and community. His memorable lesson brings meaningfull guide in embracing the value thats builds strong families and community. He layed out eight basic principles he had learn from his elders :

1. Nurturing Attitude - a attitude which characterised by unselfish caring,supportiveness and a willingness o share time.

2. Dependability Responsibilty - Dependability is being there for others through all the times of their lives, a steady influence that makes tomorrow a welcome event

3. Responsibilty - means showing and encouraging a personal commitment to each task.

4. Friendship - is the habit that binds people together when they take pleasure in each other's company, listen, laugh, share good times and bad.

5. Brotherhood - is the habit that reaches beyond comfortable relationship to extend a welcome to those who may be different from yourself.

6. High Expectations - involve believing that other can be succesfull, telling them so and prising their accomplishment.

7. Courage - is standing up and doing the right thing, speaking out for others , and making commitment to excellence in the face of adversity or the absence of support.

8. Hope - is believing in tomorrow , because you have learn to see with your heart.

HABITS

2011-05-10T20:40:00.000-07:00

What is habits ? What is the different with attitude or character , ? Experts said we are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then is not an act, but a habit. In my simpler define, I put habit as something you do without need to plan or told, It just act spontaneously. Its an auto pilot mode of act.

Habits will determine most of our behavior . Behavior is a function of our decision. And decision will decide our condition. This is how habits are connected. So how we create habits ? . Simpe, just by this equations :

Habits = Knowledge + Skill + Desire

Creating habits requires work in all 3 demensions. Knowledge gives an idea of what to do and why we do. But it doesnt ends there, we need to have skill so that we know how to do. But thats not all , unless we have desire or motivation move ourself because we want to do.

But Covey also reminded,it sometimes a painfull process. It has to work togeher with high , clear purpose and solid willingness. Just start tiny , and try work it out gradually. Im sure it brings some happiness to your life.

Tingkat Iman

2011-04-25T22:38:00.000-07:00

Kadang kita bertanya, mengapa telah lama Islam yang kita anuti, namun kesan kepada diri masih kurang berhasil.Slalu sahaja silap dan salah lampau sewenang diulangi. Mungkin juga penah suatu ketika mengalirkan air mata sesal , namun selang kemudian masih kite lemah kemudi diri.

Islam perlu dihhayati. Ini makna menimba ilmu tidak selesai disitu saja, tapi mencari yakin di dalam hati. Yakin ini sebenarnya bahtera yang bakal ubah diri. Jadi perlu difahami tingkat iman dan tahu dimana diri kita :

1. Iman taklid - ikutan tanpa imu
2. Iman Ilmu - ade ilmu tiada penhayatan dlm hati
3. Iman Ayan. - ade ilmu, ada keinginan namun masih ada pengaruh
4. Iman Haq. - rasa manis pada kebenaran, mudah pada Kepada kebaikan.

Deep Willing

2011-03-29T10:22:00.000-07:00

To achieve any goals in our life, I always put the basic of deep willingness. I had experienced this when I really wanted my dreamed car. I focus the effort entirely and the action seems to move in one pace that is to achieve the dream. Any obstacles lay ahead , we are ready to face and clear without any hasitant.

Again I like examine , where the deep willingness derive from ? How it develop within ourself , and breed the seed of steadfastness in every of our action ? In 7 steps of behavior change , the inital part is about knowledge which bring the statement of 'i know' and 'i should'. From that point it produce the desire or 'i want to' .

That little bout willingness which start from the desire or 'i want to' . How about the depth of our willingness ? Maybe now we need to address the question of purpose of our goal. It leads to more deeper meaning....

Prophet Muhammad PBUH

2011-02-14T08:39:00.000-08:00

The great Prophet Muhammad PBUH is the mercy that God sent to human. He brings and convey the message of eternal truth. On this memorable day of Maulidur Rasul , i like to recapture his last sermon to his beloved followers :

1. Hurt no one so that no one may hurt you. Remember that you will indeed meet your Lord,and that He will indeed reckon your deeds.

2. Beware of Satan. He has lost all hope that he will ever be able to lead you astray in big things, so beware of following him in small things.

3.Do treat your women well and be kind to them for they are your partners and committed helpers.

4. Worship God, say your five daily prayers (Salah), fast during the month of Ramadan, and give your wealth in Zakat. Perform Hajj if you
can afford to.

5. We are all equal except by piety and good action.

6. I leave behind two things, the Quran and my example, the Sunnah and if you follow these you will never go astray.

7. Learn that every Muslim is a brother to every Muslim and that the Muslims constitute one brotherhood.

Remember of his 4 noble characters . It may be good guide to ourself :

1. Sidiq - Truthfull

2. Amanah - Trustworthy

3. Fathanah - Intelligent

4. Tabligh - Reaching out (the message)

Wasalam.

Catatan Selepas Tahun Baru

2010-12-31T10:13:00.000-08:00

Tahun berubah ke 2011, Salam perubahan . Salam kepada menemukan jalan untuk kita juga berubah. Yang pastinya berubah kepada yang lebih baik. Yang pasti menemukan langkah pertama atau 'initial spark' yang lahir dalam diri. Insyallah.

Ibarat mencucuh kunci pada palam pencucuh kenderaan, lalu dengan spark yang pertama akan mengerakkan seluruh mekanisma kenderaan tersebut. Dengan terdetiknya untuk kita berubah,berfungsilah akal dan minda untuk mengerakkan seluruh anggota badan , tangan, kaki badan untuk melaksanakan perbuatan mengubah. Insyallah.

Motif, tujuan, matlamat, endstate menentukan makna dan segala-galanya.Ini harus betul dan jelas. Bukan tak pasti dan kabur dan keliru. Bagi saya mudah. Cuba tanya kembali mengapa kita yang bernama manusia ini dicipta. Jawapannya ada 3 :

1. Untuk patuh tunduk beribadah kepada Pencipta.
2 Menjadi pemimpin di planet bernama bumi.
3. Sebagai medan ujian menentukkan paling baik dan berjaya antara manusia.

Beribadah dan patuh beerti mengerjakan segala suruhan dan tinggalkan setiap larangan. Menjadi pemimpin ertinya memakmurkan bumi, mentadbirkan kehidupan dengan cara yang betul dan paling terbaik.Hidup sebagai medan ujian, adalah untuk kita berusaha sebaik mungkin untuk menjadi insan yang cemerlang jayanya dan menerima segala ketentuan yang telah ditetapkan.

Bunyinya mudah bukan.Tapi tidak semudah itu. Tapi ingat tentang hidup sebagai medan perjuangan ! Jadi berushalah.Kalau mudah bukan berusaha maknanya. Mungkin sudah pastinya payah. Ibarat untuk menerbangkan layang-layang, harus berlari-lari untuk membelah angin. Bila telah tinggi menari di udara, kita hanya santai menali mengawalnya di bawah. Insyallah. Selamat tahun 2011.

Catatan Sebelum Tahun Baru

2010-12-30T07:52:00.002-08:00

Salam hujung tahun. Semoga tahun ini banyak yang dirancang mampu dicapai. Bukan itu saja, lebih hebat jika tahun ini lebih baik daripada yang tahun sebelum. Ini bermakna kita telah berjaya mengubah diri. Tahniah. Kerana berubah bukan mudah, perlu dibayar dengan pengorbanan, perlu disandar dengan nilai diri yang sebenar. Bekalannya adalah ilmu.

Syukur tahun 2010 tahun beerti pada diri. Hidup lebih bermakna bila dikurnia cahaya mata pertama. Ibarat katalis pengubah yang amat berkesan , saya mendalami maksud PATUH. Patuh kepada fitrah diri dan kehidupan seperti yang diajar oleh Pencipta sememang resepi bahagia yang enak.

Keduanya SYUKUR. Ini bila kita sedar tentang kurnia yang telah diberi .Atau kita mampu meneropong jauh ke dalam diri .Terlalu besar dan banyak tapi selalu dilupa. Yang kerap diingat dan dirungut pada yang tidak dimiliki. Segala yang diberi bukan semestinya dimiliki , cuma pinjaman sementara. Mungkin yang kekal jika kita sendiri mula memberi. Memberi diri kita yang patuh dan taat. Usah disoal apa yang akan diperolehi, itu kerja Pencipta.

Patuh dah syukur .Berusaha ke arahnya. Semoga sebagai mula kita mampu menemukan 'spark' nya. Asasnya ilmu.......

GOD

2010-12-11T13:19:00.001-08:00

Ponder this situation. You lost in the puzzling jungle. The time was 12 midnight.You have been trying find way out almost 5 hours, extremely tired, exhuasted and hungry. Worst more you lost your map and the torchlight was out of batteries. You shout out loud , hoping someone might came your way but no avail. You try to lit a fire due the madness cold but the safety matches you bring along had spoil when torrential rain start pouring....

What probably your heart will utter in this crazying situation ?

Suddenly. There is sound of barking dog.It seems very clear and adjacent. Using your sense of hearing, you follow the barking sound. Just in few steps it lead you to narrow alley and finally found your way out.You saw your house and family waiting at the garden.....

What probbaly you heart will chant at this most relief moment ?

Letter to My Officer

2010-09-04T17:04:00.000-07:00

Dear Capt Cheong,

I received your report letter upon ongoing Platoon Commander course. I sincerely congratulate for your sustained and maintained result so far.

I sternly believed the course has put utmost test on your physical and mental endurance. As Commander On The Ground, you MUST be able to lead your soldiers through the heat of the jungle and through adversity of situations. And at the same time, maintain yourself without losing the command to make sound operational and tactical decision.

I want you to feel and face the challenges of this course. Grab as much knowledge as possible. I also want you to visualize the role of Artillery officer in supporting the infantry in all phases of war. You must not hesitate to give handsome advice to Infantry chap on the fire support aspect. In that case , I suggest you to start read , learn and understand the book/pamphlet ‘ Artillery in Battle Series’. Memorize and fathom every single page.

Lastly, I pray for your good health. Enjoy and be sure to end the course with glorious result. Regards to all Instructors.

Truly ,
BC.

Sajak Lewat Pagi Merdeka

2010-09-03T17:40:00.000-07:00

Selamat sambut mendekar Malaysia ke 53.
syukur merdeka tahun ini jatuh pada ramadhan yang mulia.jadi doa untuk Malaysia berjaya bagus sebab bulan ini Tuhan kabuli doa.

Saya nak doa Malaysia tak dijajah lagi.
nak doa org org Malaysia tak gaduh-gaduh
nak doa org Malaysia tak benci-benci .
supaya tak ada surau kena simbah cat
takde org baling botol arak kat surau
takde gereja nak dibakar
dan takde juga kuil nak dibom.

najib kata kita kene ingat ini negara kita.
tempat kita lahir , besar, hidup gembira.
sekurang kurangnya mati pun gembira.
sebab mayat sempat ditanam
sebab negara aman.

selamat mendekar !!!

Nur Fatihah Imani

2010-08-21T23:59:00.001-07:00

Tika ruang itu makin resah
saat hilang panduan dan arah
Nama itu ku sebut
lafaz yang tak berputus.

Nama itu menemani
dalam kabus paling kabut
dan Nama itu adalah pemberi kekuatan
pada musim risau paling gelisah.

Kini dia hadir
dalam majilis sejuta bahagia
memberi erti yang amat dalam
satu kehidupan yang paling bermakna.

Alhamdulilah Nur Fatihah Imani binti Shamyl selamat
dilahirkan pada 17 Ogos 2010 jam 1822 di
KPJ Specialist, Seremban. Amin

Of Book , Pen and Destiny

2010-08-08T03:59:00.000-07:00

Books always become my lover . But book is meaningless if we don’t read. Read become pointless if we don’t try to seek understanding.

Pen always my great companion. But pen is useless if we don’t write. The writing become useless if we write without purpose.

I like to share something from what I read. It’ s from Mr. Covey, and I’m sure worth pondering in our life. Simple basic thing , we assumed we know, but always forget . He said ‘ SOW A THOUGHT , REAP AN ACTION , SOW AN ACTION REAP A HABIT, SOW A HABIT REAP A CHARACTER , SOW A CHARACTER REAP A DESTINY.

We often hear ‘ I’m destined to be poor’ , ‘ I’m destined to be failure’ . Hope words from Mr. Covey above will relook again into your destiny.

Realising a Dream

2010-07-12T00:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Prof. Koh Soo Ling,

I read your Sunday NST article ‘ Realizing a dream’ . I share your great pleasure of success, the contentness after long and winding journey as lecturer and educator in UiTM. You strolled a challenging road and now reach the triumphant halt, and definitely that 27 years had put you a lot of falls and rises.

Your motto ‘ to excel in what I do’ is the key of determination. You had observed the beauty of hardship and the delight of struggling which give meaning in anything you do. Sadly how youngster today has lack of determination to be successful . Even some are reluctant to make the first step to change their life for betterment , like what Columbus made his first step to leave his home and discover America. Motivations and visions are still obscure in our youngs.

I love to read stories of success. Such article of yours can be inspiring for the young and constantly remind them to chase their dream and live life meaningfully. Meaningful here means to be dedicated to anything they pursue in this life. It’s like what you have done for your 27 years, I’m sure to see your students success , is most ultimate fulfillment in your life as educator.

Truly,

shamylshalyzad
seremban.

Daun Kering

2010-07-05T13:03:00.000-07:00

Today is my birthday ! Happy birthday to me. I write this poem as my birthday present to my self.The poem name ' Daun Kering ' . Enjoy.

Daun Kering
yang ditiup angin.
Entah arah ke mana .

Cuma sedaya mungkin mengharap
angin yang meniup
daun kering dibawa
ke pintu syurga.

seremban , 5 jul 2010

Shortage of Staff Nurses

2010-06-09T04:32:00.000-07:00

This letter is to inform on the shortage of staff nurses at Seremban General Hospital. Some wards are intense with patients and admission always at peak. My wife work at one of the ward often express worry of these lacking staff which may result many other unwanted consequences .

Normally each staff nurse will took charge of 4 patience . But now it can be triple and even more . At any time in the ward could amounting above 40 patients .They need to cover many task in attending each patients .This derive to many medical mismanage cases due to nurse fatigues . Staff nurse sometimes need to submit the explanatory letter for the faults occur and the complaints are getting increase. This at the end badly reflect on their performance evaluation record . Also numerous cases nurses that on pregnant ended miscarriage because have to work extra and heavily due to lack of staff. Sometimes they need to do double duty that stretch of 14 hours working a day.

Nurses are also susceptible to disease which transferred by the patients. One reported case which involve the staff nurse suffered Tibi which now jeopardized his life by her own career.

I urge the government and director of hospital take this matter seriously. The health of the nurses need to put at the top priority. Government need to identify the GH which having intense work of handling patients. The additional staff need to address urgently. This is to ensures that quality of health care that provided is at Par and error due to human can be mitigated.

Viva World Cup 2010

2010-06-03T21:42:00.000-07:00

The fever is back , the World Cup 2010, the greatest football event ever , is around the corner. All media highlights are laden and focus on this fiesta. The football lover and enthusiast will be glued to their television with supporting jersey attire. 24 nations will be competing their strategy and strength. Team manager still counting the players and struggling to finalize the squad list before fly high to South Africa in 11 Jun 201o for kick start.

In our country this event climate is hot as ever, the Mamak’s big screen stall will draw its additional crowds , and McDonald also will accommodate even greater spectators by open as official venue for live telecast .

Even merrier the betting now made legal by the government. Selected firm need not to work underground . Police is ease from having additional task during this peak season, to rush any illegal betting activity which also generates other social problem such money lending, organized crime and money laundering.

The emergence of ‘Football Pundits’ is another interesting part of this big event. Everybody just can’t stop to give his own comment and view of every game played. Each game will be critised and enormously debated .’ If I being Cappello’ .. will be heard anywhere . Some will give the brief on the game strategy and other on team fallacy . Some turn Nostradamus by giving great prophecy on which will be the winning team. This epidemic will be prolonged for a month.

Malaysian always being big fan of football . We yell, disgruntle, dismay , shout , quarrel , and this have been the long joy and cry moment for our fans. We always observed how the greats play and manage their team . We had lot of ideas and effort in developing our country team . Our legends who had really put their heart and soul to this game contributed extensively. They have show the clear vision to our national football team . The football just not about how to play the game but more importantly how the team should be managed.

Hopefully the World Cup 2010 will not just be the lame Mamak stall talking, , yelling and jumping of supporters and also never ending story of tactic and strategic discourse. Let be the South Africa 2010 as platform for thoughtful observation and serious learning over battling team in the tournament . More fruitful part is to get something from it and implement the best solution for our football future. It’s an ultimate dream of everyone, to see one day , our team play in this prestige tournament .During that time we shout and cheer together for our own team in front of Mamak’s big screen stall.

Future Front Liner

2010-05-27T19:38:00.000-07:00

The future of a country lies at their young generations , an inherent fact . The aspirations and visions that laced by our top brass undoubtedly outstanding, thoroughly and meticulously architectured . The question that may worry was wheter the visions has entirely shares and akinly frequensized by these younger generations.

National service is an applaudable effort coined by the government . In other sense it address the seriousness of the current leadership over the new generations. What will be the picture of the country once the baton is pass to this youngster , will they succeed and able to maintain our developing progress. Or we will moving at backward pace. The 3 months program of National service is just a starter. Instilling the sense of belonging and love for the country is lifelong dedication. It has to work continuously and the duration 3 months shouldn’t end once then finish the closing parade. The spirit and all the nationalism that being imparted need to be poured and seen once they rejoin the everyday life.

I’m consider among who inherited independent , developing , peace and harmony country. We are birth by witnessing all the tall buildings, modern technologies , pleasures of life by wide spreading entertainments. The culture of hedonistic are become the top priority which undermined our vision’s main effort and focus . By going back to our historical moments, delved into the trying and challenge chapters in our history are little way to aroused these youngster to understand how we are here now and the important of maintain our independent.

The country survivability is at eminent stake. It’s the time we need to instill some distinctive characteristic in them . In spite of they asking what things can be provided to them , timely they should ask themselves what they can contribute to this beloved country.

engkaukah

2010-05-23T03:41:00.000-07:00

Ku tatang dirimu bagai sang pencinta
Seraut tubuh mu panas dalam dakapku.
Dan tidak ku hiraukan apa
lirikan matamu hanya bahagia.

Adakala keras langkahku
melayukan bunga-bunga ditamanmu
Dan seakan tidak ada lagi maaf
Di syurga tak siapa yang tahu
Apakah yang telah kita laku.

Engkaukah yang hadir bersama cinta itu
Yang menenangkan segenap hatiku
Yang menyinarkan seluruh hariku

Engkaukah senyuman itu
Yang merindu seluruh diriku
Yang tetap ingin bersamaku

Engkaukah yang merasakan semua itu
yang dirimu itu milik ku
dan bagaimana pula dengan aku?

Masihkan ingin kau dakapku bagai sang pencinta
Susun rapi hatiku di dadamu
Meski dalam kurang kasih sayangmu
tetap bahagia dalam duka lara kita
dan bila fikiranmu dan fikiranku bersatu
Dalam satu dunia yang tidak sempurna
Hanya kita saja menari bersama .

Dan adakala aku tahu
sentiasa melagu resahmu
hingga jadi dirimu tidak tentu
Bagai mahu saja mati terkaku
Tapi terfikirkah jika tidak lagi bersamaku…

Oleh itu tenanglah sayangku
Biar saja kulayarkan bahtera
Sebelum kita tidak lagi bersama
untuk selama-lama.

Think Over Life

2010-05-21T18:08:00.000-07:00

Some excerpt worth to ponder and re- ponder :

We pray probably took about 7 to 10 minutes per session . Accumulatedly all 5 times prayers are less than an hour. Vice versa , we work at office from 9 to 5 which spent us almost 7 hours. Just imagine if we consider devotion to HIM only by perform the prayers, meaningly we only give 1 hours to HIM, how about the remaining 23 hours? Whereas God obligate us to devote to Him 24 hours...

Diarist

2010-04-08T12:09:00.000-07:00

Apr 8 2010,Town White Coffee, Seremban. My usual and casual menu, White Coffee and Egg Toast. Watch over group of chinesse frens,having conversations and get together over cup of coffee . Gals with tiny shorts and boyfrens ,lovingly holding hands. I at one corner enjoy myself with my MP3, my best selected songs.It really create the mood. I think hard over the life again. Recollect my strenght to move on,finding things in life that I can dedicated to, thus to live meaningfully. Deciding the priorities in life, among few salients I neglected for so long. I choose to be in career which adverse to my innerself . I look how people make life so simple : like know where to go, what to find, what to do and happy with it. Vice versa I still doubt about the road I choose, not sure where to stop, when to move and more severely , where to go.

Mybe this my bless destiny.I struggle to understand things while others just fathom by little glance.This dwarfness haunting now and then .So I decided that this fine evening coffee,I just throw aside all those things and thinkings. I just want to be calm and happy. Don't care and bother about anything , what I know is to enjoy my thick white coffee , my yummy eggy toast and my loyal MP3 ,over the scenary of cute chicks around. Yes this what I want. Only this.

Achievement

2010-04-06T18:42:00.000-07:00

My steps to achieve anything in life :

1. Set your goal.
2. Duration or Interval time to achieve.
3. Decide your intermediate/implied task ( things want need to be done)
4. Analyze critical factors. Always keep in mind.
4. Monitor your progress time to time.
6. Remind and re-remind goal.

Good Luck with the recipe !

Meet Bond, Ruskin Bond

2010-01-14T02:29:00.000-08:00

I have no idea whoabouts of this writer. It started when one day I bought stock clearence book sales at local bookshops only at RM 3 per copy. I picked 10 books by glance, accidently one of them is The Lamp is Lit by Ruskin Bond. Born in Kasauli , Himachal Pradesh in 1934, an India writer of English descend, he considered to be icon among Indian writer and children authors.

After read few pages, flips few leaves from his journal, I come to agree that this man write so simple, greatly. He wrote poem and story while enjoying the shade of cherry tree. He will lying on the grass and doing nothing but next second he gets up, brush ladybirds from the shirts and trousers to procced to his desk to write. He said "what I need is a paper" .

He survived of 40 years free-lancing only for being simple storyteller. He strived to give pleasure to both child and adult by not hiding his scars, but by showing that it can be beautiful in spite of them. His advice are purely his, " do what you know best, do it well. Act impeccably. Everthing will then fall into place".

This old chap inspired me alot to write. At the final chapter of his journal , his words still thick and sound , " and these are my parting words to you, dear reader : May you have wisdom to be simple, and humour to be happy..."

Some lines from Mr Bond :

When I was ten, I was lonely and read books.

At fifteen, I played football with other boys.

When I was twenty, I courted the girls.

At thirty, I thought time had passed so swiftly.

When I was forty, I concluded that I was failure.

But at fifty, as I was still alive and well, I knew I was a success.

At sixty, I played old music and fell in love again.

At seventy, I went in search of old friends.

Transgender, show your pride

2010-01-02T03:14:00.000-08:00

I refer to issue and article on Transgender, NST 20 Dec 2009, they faced formidable life of being alienated by the society. I agreed, they need special care, deep discourses and any form of serious counseling sessions enabling them to lead a normal life. They experiencing internal crisis of gender, they fought with their feelings on to be true and honest about themselves. And at the end they lost the battle, they became hopeless and tormented of trying to be right person. Now they didn’t care anymore, what people may say about the life they choose.

Hard to find work, not accessible to any job interviews are most horrifying reality to them. They ended at selling their pride, the least they can do to earn living. This consider most cheapest career they delve in with luxurious gains .

The perception of society has become norm of transgender, they are synonymous to sleazy sex workers. More sad reality they seems enjoying and feel nothing violate about their wrongdoings. They are actually downgrading themselves. They choose to do something that put disrespect of others. If they among those successful business people in any realm surely this can be an eye opener to others. If they want to gain respect , they need to behave respectfully, uphold their pride and dignity. No matter they are transgender or even normal person , any commit of outlaws are not compromised.

This aspect we should rectified. We cant change them completely, turn them to be real man overnight. But by injection of dignity are starter for them to feel respected and accepted.

2010

2010-01-01T05:00:00.000-08:00

Slamat Tahun 2010. Saya menutup buku 2009 dengan mengharungi deman yang panjang. Hingga malam 31 , saya masih lesu dan tidak menunggu detik coutdown 12 malam. Tulisan ni pun dicatat pada jam 5.35 pagi apabila terjaga jam 0500, tersedar yang solat Isyak masih terbengkalai.

Resolusi tahun baru saya terlewat 5 jam. Tapi tak pe, kata org better late than never . Pertama setelah merasa deman hampir seminggu, saya akui bahawa sihat yang baik itu kurnia dan nikmat yang amat besar. Hampir semua kerja-kerji saya tergendala. Gejala yang saya alami :

1. Selera makan hilang.Meski KFC.

2. Hilang nafsu berkerja. Buat ape je jadi betul.

3. Fikiran tak mampu banyak berfikir.

Jadi, teringat kembali tentang gunakanlah sihat sebelum sakit. Bile dah sakit semua tak jadi. Kedua pada tahun ni saya mahu berpegang kepada keyword yang pernah saya saran pada diri sendiri iaitu :

1. Fokus

2. Serious

3. Masa

Dan saya merangkak ke 2010 dengan doa :

Tuhan, terlebih dahulu pinta dan maaf kerana dosa yang banyak. Dosa yang pernah dikesal tapi diulangnya lagi. Dosa yang tahu tapi dibuatnya jugak. Tuhan, saat sebegini terasa begitu kecil dan tidak dayanya diri untuk mengemudi diri melainkan AnginMu yang memimpin. Tuhan untuk sekian kali, hamba mu ini cuba mengoyakkan helaian mukasurat lepas, untuk memulakan catatan yang baru. Ya Tuhan, pada catatan kali ini hambaMu ini sedaya mungkin berjanji untuk untuk memenuhi cerita-cerita yang lebih baik .Insyallah.Amin

Di Jalan Sesat

2009-12-06T06:45:00.000-08:00

Di Jalan Sesat

Apakah takdir mimpi ini
Mendatang berulang kali
Berdarah penuh di tanah
Sedang tangan menungkat langit

Apakah yang ku perjuangkan
Apakah yang dipertahan
Apakah mesti aku jadi pahlawan

Oh Tuhan

Tidaklah aku layak
Untuk SyurgaMu
Namun aku tak berdaya
Menahan panas NerakaMu

Curiga di mata orang
Bagai mentari rembang
Bagaikan aku berdosa
Pada siapa saja

Sedang Tuhan di mana-mana
Melihat semua dosa
Dalam serata usia
Walau ditelan
Segitiga Bermuda

Selalu ku mengulangi
Dosa yang telah ku buang
Diikuti kembali
Mengapa begini
Mengapa begini

Sedang Tuhan tahu sesiapa
Untuk Neraka untuk Syurga
Aku tak terpaksa memilih Syurga
Demi pengertian pada hukum alam

Dan sesungguhnya aku cinta padaMu Tuhan
Walaupun sesat jalan.

Kuala Lumpur : Tonight I Spent My Night With You

2009-11-27T18:18:00.000-08:00

And again, after long time since I left u behind, I spent my night with you again.

And again, as usual you never fail to give for what I wanted.

KL, I thought want to prove to you how I changed alot, but your smiles had every story that still never erase from your diary.

I know, you knew how really I need to go on with this life. How the pain that still haunts , how the horrow still sings, I just want to show that I have change for good. Even whenever I run, the grief still follows behind.

KL, now I had life better. I dont care and give a damn how you will laugh about it. Just I dont know when will be my end. A thing for sure , I want say out loud , as long as I can feel the air and breath, I will never succumb, I will never tired to stand up again evertyime I fall.

I happy with all this pains. And I hope all the trials made me better and not become someone like you !

Procrastination

2009-11-15T02:10:00.000-08:00

My last post was in September , and almost 2 months something stops me from write. I unsure what was it ,but i think it something to do with my inner occurence. I always dream to be a writer but i still on the quest of my consistency to write.It always that when my mood is condusive then i start writing, when bottle is emty then nothing seems to be producted.

But there was words from writer name of Diaz..who said ' in my view writer is writer because even there is ni hope, even when nothing you do shows any sign of promise, you keep writing anyway..'

Pak Cik Who Sold Apam Balik, but Refused to Sell during Ramadhan.

2009-09-23T03:56:00.000-07:00

The stall was at residential area , invited few other residents from different taman. The sales of Apam Balik was handsome and Pak Cik is known by his specialty . I never miss during way back to taman, grabbed few of his Apam Balik. And it’s a great evening delicacies with some hot tea -o.

Pak Cik received endless customer, regular and irregular . As retired war veteran, with this stall business, Pak Cik lived moderate life yet happily. Sometimes Pak Cik will be joined with his comrades, also war’s veterans , giving him some helping hands run the tiny business.

Ramadhan along the corner, I enthusiastly spoke to Pak Cik about his business. Surely this Ramadhan by God willing Pak Cik will gain more income on selling his Apam. I told that Ramadhan surely invite extra customer and some will order for the large amount . Maybe there will be some bookings, so Pak Cik need more helper and advisedly upgrade the stall to become larger. Pak Cik smiled cordialy and nodded attentively . When Ramadhan just a day ahead, residents are became eager and some had plan to be there earlier to get Pak Cik’s delicious Apam Balik.

Hot Ramadhan evening and residents were out to pasar Ramadhan for breaking fast delicacies. I among early but…I just can’t believe my eyes that Pak Cik stall was not there…

Second Ramahan also the same, then gone weeks, but still the same. Where is Pak Cik ? I fail to find Pak Cik during Ramadhan. Residents also puzzled his sudden disappearance.

But at last I was made to met Pak Cik again. But that was during Syawal month. I stopped him and gave salam. He smiled as usual. I asked about his whereabouts during Ramadhan. With his sharp calmly smile he answered, “Sory son , Pak Cik open the stall after Isya’ and Terawih prayer everyday during Ramdhan at our residential surau. But this time Pak Cik give all for free. But confusedly , why customers not crowded as usual…"

After long thought, I understood what meant by Pak Cik.

Heart and Mind

2009-09-19T20:55:00.000-07:00

We maybe a person with sky achievements. Every aim that lay ,everything seems goes onto target. Nothing obstacled the way, just simply and confidently leap every hurdles to achieve the goal.

Life is not solely about achieving. I learned that life is also about contemplating and meditating . Seldom we ask ourselves : We did right thing ? What is the real purpose ? Did we manipulate others ? Is it the best way to be done ? It’s sound simple and trivial but this little tiny things determined the person colors.

Once yourself always yourself . I disagree, I want to keep the good of myself, thrash up undescend , dirty and smelly part of me . But that’s not about all, I keep on asking how to become a better person. What software need to be installed in ourselves ? Is it need to be installed ? Or something already in our inner that need to change, refurbish or overhaul ?

There are two engines that work us as human . HEART AND MIND. This two engines need to function together with regular servicing and maintenance. Often I miss the next service date…..

hati aku lebam main di taman permainanmu

2009-09-13T00:01:00.000-07:00

hati ku lebam main di taman permainan mu

tidak penah lebam yang besar begini
sejak aku mula main di taman permainan mu.
masa aku hayun buaian lalu engkau senyum dan gelak
sebenanya aku telah lama menangis dan bengkak.

tidak penah lebam yang besar begini
waktu engku jerit gembira di puncak papan gelongsor
sedang aku jatuh melungsur ke tanah
Lalu engkau gelak tentang betapa badutnya aku.

tidak penah lebam sebesar begini
waktu bermain jongkang jongkit itu
ketika aku di bawah dan engkau di atas
dan engkau terus mahu berada di atas
engkau terus gembira dan suka aku terkinja di bawah.

dan hari itu lebam itu sudah sebesar bulan
masa aku ajak engkau pulang
kau masih mahu terus bermain di taman permainan
sedang aku tahu engkau melihat dari jauh
ku jalan pulang seorang diri
meninggalkan taman permainan itu.

selamat merdeka

2009-08-31T19:05:00.000-07:00

Selamat merdeka Malaysia. Hepi Birthday ke -52. Memang seronok hidup di Malaysia . Aku lahir 1977 maknanya 20 tahun lepas merdeka, masa tu dah tak ada perang-perang. Umur Malaysia masa tu 20 tahun makna Malaysia dah remaja dan kira dah maju . Selama tempoh 32 tahun aku idup di sini semuanya seronok. Macam –macam ada. Tak ada pulak rasa takut nak kuar umah sebab ada tembak-tembak , gaduh-gaduh dan perang-perang. Bebas nak pegi shopping, main video game,lepak-lepak, beli itu ini dan tak ada pulak pun orang nak marah klau tak pergi masjid. Seingat kalau tak silap masa Prebet Adam mengamuk tembak-tembak kat KL , masa tu aku pergi sekolah jugak macam biasa. Jadi aku rasa kat sini memang seronok, bagus untuk jadi apa yang kita nak jadi, buat apa yang kita suka.

Aku salute kat pejuang merdeka negara ini. Dia orang memang betul –betul perang, sakit dan derita masa tu , diaorang berkorban, bagi nyawa diaorang sebab terlalu sayang tanah air ini . Aku cuma nak pesan, kalau boleh , sikit pun tak apa, busuk-busuk pun kita semua jagalah negara ni. Aku memang tak penah duduk luar negera, tapi aku dapat rasa Malaysia tak macam kat negara lain, aman dan seronok .

Ini bukan suruh jadi askar , kadang askar tak patriot mana pun. Cuma kalau kita tak buang sampah rata-rata dah kira kita ini perwira negara. Kalau kita tak jadi pencuri, gangster, samseng , Ah Long atau perogol pun kita dah kira jadi perwira negara. Kalau kita tak rosak conteng tandas dan telefon awan pun dah kira kita boleh jadi perwira negara. Sekarang ni bukan susah susah nak jadi wira negara, tak payah nak bersenapang dan berpistolan lagi .

Aku bukanlah patrio sangat pun, tapi kalau orang kutuk negara ni , aku pun bengang jugak, walau pun kadang aku sendiri pun mengutuk . Aku tahu negara ni banyak bangsa, banyak fahaman, tapi bila bersama kita tak la pulak kutuk direct sama sendiri , hina sana sini , nak buat pun belakang-belakang saja. Benci menyampah dengan jiran sebelah pun tapi bila jumpa senyum jugak. Itu yang unik negara ini.

Ingat dah tak tau nak kata apa lagi. Kadang tertanya kenapa aku lahir di negara yang amam macam ni, kenapa tak kat Palestin , kat Bosnia , kat Iraq ke. Jadi aku perlu banyak bersyukur. Terima kasih pada Tuhan kerana lahirkan aku di tempat yang aman dan seronok macam ni. Aku dapat hidup dengan sempurna, dapat bersekolah, beruniversiti, berfamili, bermakan sama-sama dan kadang -kadang bersembahyang sama-sama.

Hepi birthday Malaysia. Awak dah 52 tahun. Banyak dah berubah dari dulu. Sekarang ni awak lebih hensem dari dulu. Dulu awak banyak bergolak tapi sekarang tenang hadapi ombak. Aku tak tahu nak bagi hadiah apa kat awak untuk harijadi ini.. Cuma satu aku boleh bagi atau janji ……diri aku menjadi penghuni yang baik. Itu saja. Merdeka !

Anger Management

2009-08-28T23:00:00.000-07:00

While i'm reading Daniel Golemen's Emotional Intelligence, spotted a quote from Mr. Aristotle, the author of Nicomachean Ethics , that worth ponder....

"Anyone can become angry - that is easy. But to be angry with right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, in the right way - that is not easy."

so , anyone on this challenge...?

Cari Cinta Sempurna

2009-08-27T23:00:00.000-07:00

Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku darimu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesabaranmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
tak mampu tuk memnaggung sebuah cinta sempurna darimu

Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirmu
ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku
Hilangkan rasa itu
Akhirkankan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan

shamyl - saja nak share lirik Yuna ni..

Kuar Rumah Pergi Petik Cahaya

2009-08-26T22:55:00.000-07:00

Kuar Rumah Pergi Petik Cahaya
(sajak merajuk seorang suami kepada isterinya)

Malam itu aku kuar rumah hempas pintu
kerana kecik hati.

Aku tak ke mana mana
cuma parking di masjid
duduk seorang diri dalam kereta.

Masa dalam kereta
aku melihat banyak cahaya.

cahaya di bangunan-bangunan
cahaya di kereta-kereta
cahaya di lampu- lampu jalan
dan cahaya pada bulan.

Lalu aku petik satu cahaya untukku
satu cahaya untukmu.

dan tidak lupa satu cahaya untuk rumah kita
yang tadi malap masa kereta meluru laju
kuar dari rumah.

Email Kepada Dr. Haslina

2009-08-24T21:02:00.000-07:00

Aslkum Dr, saya Mejar Shamyl dari Kem Sikamat, tempohari Dr jumpe semasa buat soal selidik akidah pada anggota tentera. Kajian ini amat berguna dan yang lebih penting apakah tindakan pihak tertentu hasil daripada penyelidikan ini. Gejala murtad ini memang telah lama ujud , tanpa disedari , kerana kita kini hanya Islam pada nama. Ramai kita Islam sejak lahir dan lantas kita sering take for granted tentang kurnia dan nikmat ini. Kita sejak kecil belajar agama di sekolah, hadiri kelas megaji dan medapat didikan Islam secara formal. Tapi pada saya semua ini tidak cukup. Ini kerana jiwa dan roh Islam itu tidak menyebati dalam diri. Justeru kita mudah tewas dan menghadapi hidup yang penuh dengan pengaruh dan dugaan, Islam yang kite pegang selama ini tidak mengiringi kita menghadapi semua ini.

Pada saya Dr, kita perlu ada jiwa searching bagi menemui Islam yang sebenar. Kita perlu ade jiwa to find the eternal truth , kerana bertitik tolak daripada situ, kita akan mencari dan terus mencari Tuhan sebenarnya . Saya terkesan dengan kisah Yusuf Islam ( Cat Steven ) dimana beliau akhirnya menemukan dirinya dengan ALLAH S.W.T setelah lama dalam proses searching yang saya maksudkan tadi. Daripada seorang Rock star yang kosong jiwanya kepada pendakwah yang disayangi dunia termasuk rakan rakan kristien beliau . Bila kita menemukan sesautu hasil daripada jatuh bangun dan jerih perih kita sendiri, ia mejadi begitu bermakna. Kita akan menghargainya, menjaganya sebaik mungkin dan menjadi pegangan kita yang kukuh.

Saya sering mengingatkan diri, rakan-rakan bahawa meski kita lahir Islam bukan bererti kita telah menemui Islam . Kita diberi kenderaan yang mampu membawa kita ke jalan yang benar namun kenderaan itu tidak akan menemukan destinasi yang sebenar jika kita tidak menggunakannya untuk cari dan terus mencari.

Ini cuma sedikit pendapat daripada saya. Harap Dr akan berjaya dalam penyelidikan yang sedang dijalankan dan menemukan ubat sebaiknya bagi menyembuh sakit yang dilanda Islam kini. Wasalam